in alone in a room full of people

hey guys its me abi hear again so to fill you in on the stuff that's been going on lately well I went back to jail for the 6th time and I had to stay there for 3 weeks for nothing because they screwed up I wasn't even supposed to be their but I was and now iv been out for about 2 weeks but when I was I there I found out all my stuff had been moved and I was moving again after I was just settling in I have been moved to ia new group home and I hate it there maybe its just cuz I'm mad that they keep moving me or maybe its just beacase I hate my life I don't know all I do know is I'm in a relationship I'm breathing I hate my life I cant trust anyone I cut away my pain iv been depressed my bf was threating to break up with me and I feel worthless but why am I still breathing than I don't even know why anymore I don't even know if I ever knew why I was breathing only that my mother and god gave me a breath of life that sadly I never wanted and never asked for but I'm hear and all I'm doing is breathing I don't understand why they say that they are there to help me when all they ever have done is break me down to nothing so bad that even I feel like I cant fix the broken pieces that have crumbled off of me nothing can compare the pain iv felt and am feeling rn yesterday tomorrow and day after day cfs mys boyfriend myc school mom dad LIFE your making me crazy ....

I feel alone more alone than ever but yet I'm in a room full of people rn yesterday tomorrow day in and day out screaming out for help but seems like no ones out there to hear my cries for help not rn not yesterday tomorrow day in day out thx for reading ill update as soon as I can -abi